My girlfriend just doesn’t seem to have the time for me anymore. I’ve been like this for two weeks now. I don’t know what really going On. its like a blink with an eye, she change just like that. I’ve been with my girlfriend for 6 months and 6 days to be exact. we spent pretty much time every day together doing everything together “online”. we know each other for 3yrs we just broke up 2009 then we’re back together last year December 2010. I felt pretty sad and lonely when we’re apart, now same feeling I experiencing way back 2 yrs ago when we’re not together. I feel scared, I feel even worse, I love her so much, I don’t want to lose her again. even most of the time we argue about different things/opinion and different likes. hard for us to fix everything in a good way, maybe because of distance, thousand miles apart. even we’re always talking/chatting(Yahoo messenger/skype) its hard for us.. we can’t do a date (physically), watching movies together, eating together, all the things we did is virtual. well, we both know how hard long distance relationship are, but we’re just holding our promises to each other that our dreams will come true, someday… but now she change a lot. she can’t even send/text me a single message, what her doing, if she’s okay? or something like that. it’s hard for me, she’s not like that before. I feel like she ignoring my message even I send her tons of offline messages to her facebook, YM/Fone but no reply from her. even I’m asking her a little time just to know she’s fine, but I feel neglected, but I’m not giving up easily even sometimes I feel tired waiting. I’m still hoping someday she will come back and realize her mistake that she still need me and still love me. I’m thinking she just need time and space or from the way we do everyday. online sucks.. oh well whatever happen, I need to be ready to accept the fact were not meant each other. but its hard for me to say goodbye. (breaking up again?). life is a bitch we just need to learn how to fuck it… I’m just bored and lonely, fuck my life.
Don’t know what to do, stuck my ass in my stinky room for an hour, I want to go out somewhere and skate but I cant, Raindrops threatening. seating in a corner playing a couple songs, checking facebook and Emails maybe someone sending their demo, so I can upload in my music blog but its empty, waiting for the time passed by. I been like this every time your not around. anyway fcuking myself in a corner is the best thing to do when I’m bored..kidding.